“God is God.
Because he is God, He is worthy of my trust and obedience.
I will find rest
nowhere but in His holy will that is unspeakably beyond my largest notions of
what he is up to.”
–Elizabeth Elliot
Well, it’s
official! December 28th we
will be homeless. As of yesterday afternoon, we have a signed purchase
agreement on our house.
When our real estate
agent called to tell us, Chuck & I looked at each other & began to
laugh. For the first time in 23 years of
marriage we have absolutely no idea what we are doing or where we are going next. It seems completely
crazy & yet… we have an amazing sense of peace about it.
Just yesterday my
sweet husband made this blog entry. He described just perfectly, the choices we have made in order to 'put our money where our mouth is', to completely trust God's plan for us & jump out into the unknown…
“For
the past several months, my wife and I have been doing a great deal of praying
concerning the life we have been living for Jesus. We have been evaluating our
motives, our desires, and our choices in light of scripture and found that what
we, as well as many others we know, have considered the 'Christian Life', has
really been nothing more than a justifiable secular Christianity. Together, my
wife and I have identified multiple times when we sprinkled faith on top of our
old nature and been content to call it an 'obedient' life.
Not
everything we have done or have chosen to do has been this way but over our
adult lives, we feel as if we have bought into the 'American Dream' so deeply
that it has tainted our vision of what Christ says should be our dream.
When the world tells us to seek the best and the most comfort possible,
Christ says to trust Him for our 'daily bread' and to 'store up our treasures
in heaven'. When the world says to continually upgrade everything,
scripture reminds us to 'be content with what we have'.
With
all of these revelations in our life, my wife and I committed to pray about it
all and see if we could discern exactly what God is asking of us. What we
heard was the most irrational request ever. "If you really want to
engage in this faith journey as I have requested of you, I want you to sell
your house, and all of the other things that have been a stumbling block in
your walk with Me. Don't worry about the economy, don't worry about the housing
market, don't worry about what others in your church or your community will
think or what they will say to you or behind your back. I have called you to
follow ME. Not this world."
I'd
like to say that when Lisa and I felt the Lord say this to us, that we quickly
thanked Him for His response and we got right on it. But it didn't happen
that way. I wanted to question as to whether or not I heard Him right.
Lisa cried and felt a sense of mourning for the things she felt God was asking
us to give up...that we had grown so comfortable with. But we knew we
needed to listen. We needed to do as we felt we were being told.
So,
the house is up for sale. We have sold several personal items from the house
that we weren't using or used little and have been whittling away at the credit
card debt, with the money from the sale of those items.
We
are no longer seeking to live the American Dream but the Christian one that God
has called us to. Our hearts desire is to get to the point where we are at a
place spiritually as well as financially where we are able to help people out
of the blessings we receive from God instead of the scraps we have left.
Hebrews 12:1-2 says, "Therefore, since we have so
great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every
encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with
endurance the race that is set before fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author
and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross,
despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of
God." For Lisa and I, we will look at people like the disciples and
the other great people of true faith who sought to live every aspect of their
lives sold out for Christ. And we will no longer focus on comfort and
the deceptions of this world but will seek to maintain a constant focus
on Christ, who gave everything so that we might truly live.”
As I find myself trying to get my head around the reality of our new circumstances, I'm finding myself drawn back to some of the things I first read in Crazy Love almost a year ago. Yesterday as we waited to hear back from our realtor about our counter offer, I read this quote by Francis Chan, “God doesn't
call us to be comfortable. He calls us to trust Him so completely that we are
unafraid to put ourselves in situations where we will be in trouble if He
doesn't come through.”
And so... in
76 days, we will leave this home that God has so graciously lent to us for the
past 6 years & embark on to the next stop in the journey He is laying out before us...
"The mind of man plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps."
-Proverbs 16:9