Sunday, December 22, 2013

Ah yessssssss... It’s a Wonderful Life...

"A toast to my big brother, George — the richest man in town." 
-Harry Bailey, It's a Wonderful Life

I've been quarantined to my apartment the past 24 hours with the pink eye. I know, I know, it's not exactly what I want to have over Christmas but it has allowed me a couple of perks. I read a whole book yesterday. Which is one of my most favorite things to do, so yay me! I also was able to curl up on the couch with my husband & daughter & watch old Christmas movies. We have our favorites... White Christmas... the Grinch... A Christmas Story... It's a Wonderful Life.

It's a Wonderful Life is by far my favorite Christmas movie.

Most of you know the story but just in case you don't... "This is director Frank Capra's classic bittersweet comedy/drama about George Bailey (James Stewart), the eternally-in-debt guiding force of a bank in the typical American small town of Bedford Falls. As the film opens, it's Christmas Eve, 1946, and George, who has long considered himself a failure, faces financial ruin and arrest and is seriously contemplating suicide. High above Bedford Falls, two celestial voices discuss Bailey's dilemma and decide to send down eternally bumbling angel Clarence Oddbody, who after 200 years has yet to earn his wings, to help George out. But first, Clarence is given a crash course on George's life, and the multitude of selfless acts he has performed: rescuing his younger brother from drowning, losing the hearing in his left ear in the process; enduring a beating rather than allow a grieving druggist to deliver poison by mistake to an ailing child; foregoing college and a long-planned trip to Europe to keep the Bailey Building and Loan from letting its Depression-era customers down; and, most important, preventing town despot Potter from taking over Bedford Mills and reducing its inhabitants to penury. Along the way, George has married his childhood sweetheart Mary (Donna Reed), who has stuck by him through thick and thin. But even the love of Mary and his children are insufficient when George, faced with an $8000 shortage in his books, becomes a likely candidate for prison thanks to the vengeful Potter. Bitterly, George declares that he wishes that he had never been born, and Clarence, hoping to teach George a lesson, shows him how different life would have been had he in fact never been born. After a nightmarish odyssey through a George Bailey-less Bedford Falls (now a glorified slum called Potterville), wherein none of his friends or family recognize him, George is made to realize how many lives he has touched, and helped, through his existence; and, just as Clarence had planned, George awakens to the fact that, despite all its deprivations, he has truly had a wonderful life." -http://www.fandango.com/itsawonderfullife_v25590/plotsummary

I have to admit, there's just something about George Bailey that speaks to my heart. I think it is because he reminds me so much of my own husband. 

Here's what I mean. 

My husband is the most selfless person I know. He very often sets aside his own wants, dreams, desires & sometimes sleep to care for others. On the other hand, living this way can be discouraging. I think perhaps it's easier to measure 'success' when you are building a building... a church building for example. There is a clear start... from approving the drafts of the architect, to the breaking of ground, the pouring of footings, framing & erecting walls, & a clear finish with carpeting & paint & lighting & furniture. It can be challenging to see this kind of progress when you are building relationships & investing in the lives of people.

Now don't misunderstand me. I would never in a million years choose to have a different life & I certainly wouldn't change what my husband does or who he is. We are truly blessed beyond measure. 

Ah yes... now back to the movie... 

As we watched it this year, I was struck by something I saw briefly in George's office at the Building & Loan... 


There’s a sign under his father's picture that says “All you can take with you is that which is given away.”
 
In a culture where success is measured by how much money you make, what kind of house you live in, what kind car you drive, what kind of vacations you take & even what you spend on Christmas, this is a profoundly encouraging statement. 

This holiday season I pray that no matter what you do, where you go & what you spend, that you will consider this... 

What kind of relationships have you built

Who have you invested your life in?

Who would be most impacted if you’d never been born? 

"This is My commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you. 
Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends."
-Jesus, John 15:12 & 13 

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

The ‘Ugly’ Christmas Sweater



"We are shaped and fashioned by what we love" –Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

 

Embracing the UG!

I have a pretty basic wardrobe. Black shirts, black sweaters, jeans, gray & black scarves & black boots. I don’t know what has trapped me in this dark existence. Maybe it’s the many years I have been overweight (black covers a multitude of sins... er... uh... pounds) or maybe it’s my strong inner desire NOT to call attention to myself... at any cost. I do so love to lurk in the background.

Anyhoo… this year the library where I work & our beloved church family decided to have an “Ugly” Christmas Sweater day. Some people were offended as they had only to visit their closet & “pick one”. Since I am so obviously color & festively challenged, I headed off to our local second hand shop to pick out my fabulously “ugly” sweater. I had the most amazing time. There were, after all, a plethora of brightly colored, extraordinarily tacky, beautifully bedazzled, jingle bell embellished masterpieces to choose from.  Finally I found the perfect one for me. Understated yet ferociously Christmasy. I practically ran to my car, clutching my bag to my chest & cackling... rather disturbingly. Mwhahahahahahahaha…

Once I arrived home, I began to assemble my outfit. First came the black leggings & scarf… then big thick gray socks & my snow boots & to top it all off a bright red Santa hat for my head.

Every day for a week, I passed by my ensemble hanging on the back of my bedroom door & wrung my hands with glee...  

Startlingly, the more & more I looked at it, the more & more I began to love it.

This morning when I finally ‘donned my gay apparel’, I felt something that rarely happens in my world... I was deeply in love with my sweater. It is fabulous! & even better... it makes me FEEL fabulous!

I will NEVER… read my words… NEVER… snicker behind my hand at a tacky Christmas sweater again! Maybe die hard Christmas sweater wearing people have had it right all along.

I was so overcome with Christmas joy, that I did a little dance into the living room & did a little prance past my husband who peered over his coffee cup & raised his eyebrows. Yes people! He knows, what I know… I am especially fabulous today!

As I danced & pranced the whole way to work, it occurred to me. THIS is what Christmas is all about.

Here’s what I mean…  

Before Jesus, the world was trapped in sin & darkness... much like my plain aka boring wardrobe. But the gift of HIS miraculous birth allows us to break free of all the gloom & sadness that binds us. We can choose instead to throw off those old, black, filthy rags of sin & put on the new, bright, clean, beautiful remnants of grace. Oh how marvelous! Oh how wonderful! Oh how glorious! Oh how beautiful the ‘Ugly’ Christmas Sweater! 

Colossians 3 says it perfectly... 

 

"Don't lie to one another. 
You’re done with that old life. 
It’s like a filthy set of ill-fitting clothes you’ve stripped off and put in the fire. 
Now you’re dressed in a new wardrobe. 
Every item of your new way of life is custom-made by the Creator, with his label on it. 
All the old fashions are now obsolete. 
Words like Jewish and non-Jewish, religious and irreligious, insider and outsider, uncivilized and uncouth, slave and free, mean nothing. 
From now on everyone is defined by Christ, everyone is included in Christ."
  –Colossians 3:9-11 (the Message) 


So... Embrace the UG! Oh &

 


 




Tuesday, December 10, 2013

The Great Purge… one year later


"There is no greatness where there is not simplicity, goodness, and truth." 
–Leo Tolstoy



I’ve had several people ask me recently how we are doing. To say that 2013 has been a little more of the same ol’, same ol’ would be the understatement of the year. 

Many of you know that last year around this time, we felt God prompting us to simplify our lives. It’s hard to explain what God was doing with us, although perhaps the biggest outward example was the downsize from our spacious, four bed, three bath, 2400 square foot home to a tiny two bed, one bath, 940 square foot apartment.  This decision wasn’t something we took lightly & as we continued to pray we didn’t feel good about making it a temporary thing. So we took a big step... we sold our home, chose not to put our ‘stuff’ in storage & instead decreased everything we owned by two thirds, shut off our cable & found a new home for our beloved dogs.  

I don’t for a second want you to think that everyone should do this. God calls us each to do different things. To obey. To sacrifice in different ways. 

I also don’t want to make it sound like it was no big deal or that somehow it’s been easy. There were times it was truly heartbreaking. Truth be told, the day we moved our dogs to their new home I found myself in the liquor store buying a bottle of wine in my pajama bottoms. Yeah, I’m not proud of it… but for me it was a ‘come to Jesus’ moment... one of many. 

In retrospect, it probably looked absolutely crazy from the outside but on the inside, it was by far the best thing we have ever done as a family. In many ways, I’m amazed to be able to say that the beauty of what God moved us to do, far outweighs any of the negative. 

So today, almost a full year later... I want to share with you the top ten good things God has taught me this year through the ‘Great Purge’… 

10. We still have more than most. 

9. When people think you are crazy, say that you are crazy behind your back or just come right out with it right in front of your face… it hurts. A lot. But not as nearly as much as the thought of not following what God has called you to do. I’ll take crazy over disobedient any day.  

8. Having less is freeing. I don’t have a single thing that I don’t love or don’t use every day. 

7. Our kids still visit even though they don’t have a bedroom & have to sleep stacked up like cord wood on the sofa bed. Having a close family has nothing to do with the size of house you live in. 

6. Relationships are key. Actually I already knew this, but I have to say, we’ve figured out who our real friends are this year. They are the ones who chose to embrace the crazy, put their arms around us, pray with us & encourage us to follow Jesus… whatever the cost. 

5. My husband is a hero. There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t thank God for the man He has given me to share my life with. I’ll take tight quarters with this guy over a mansion any ol’ day. There’s something to be said for living an authentic life & doing authentic ministry. 

4. Having little allows us to DO more. 

3. The ‘least of these’ live right under our noses. We need only to open our eyes… or in our case, have a little change of scenery.  

2. What I want & what I need are two very different things.

1. Never say never. Cause that’s when God wrecks your life. For the good.

More than ever… today… one year later… I pray that I will never stop reevaluating where I am & the understanding of what is truly important… 

Are things becoming more important than people?

Am I just busy being busy? 

Are my spiritual priorities out of whack? 

Am I putting anything before my relationship with Jesus? 

May it never be… 

 I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. 
But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. 
Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. 
I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.”
- Philippians 3:12-14 (the Message)

 Jesus. He is the Goal. He is the Prize.




 
This I know

Up on the mountain
Where Your love captured me
Where finally I'm free
This I know
Up on the mountain
Where You taught my soul to sing
Amazing grace the sweetest thing
This I know

And then the storm rushing in

And here I am again
This I know

Take me up to where I was

When I never wanted more than You
Lift me up to feel your touch
It wouldn't be that much for You
This I know
This I know
This I know
This I know

Up on the mountain

Where You took me by the hand
Taught me to dance again
This I know
Up on the mountain
Where You took this heart of stone
Put life back in these bones
This I know

Take me up to where I was

When I never wanted more than You
Lift me up to feel your touch
It wouldn't be that much for You
This I know
This I know
This I know
This I know

David Crowder, The Essential Collection






Monday, December 9, 2013

Silent night...



I am looking at our schedule for the next few weeks & I am completely aghast… 

I sincerely do not know how this has happened. We have not a single night free till Christmas… & our weekends are double & triple booked. 

As reality set in this morning, I am wondering, how are we to embrace the humble & the holy when every single moment is packed full with the complete opposite? 

GAH! 

So if you see me out & about & I seem a little off… I am. Trust me, I know the ‘tude I’m workin’ today is not gonna fly thru the 25th & I'm well aware that it's not OK to be 'bah humbugging' Jesus birthday month. I promise, I am working on it. 

However, on behalf of pastor’s wives everywhere I implore you… If you invite me to something & I just can’t make it, please don’t take it personally, just toss a little grace in my direction… I won’t be keeping notes on which things you make it to & which ones you don’t. 

Cause… Gah! 

I NEED a Silent Night.
I know some of you do too… 





Wednesday, December 4, 2013

The First Day Back... Living in the Moment Part II

"All that glitters is not gold" -William Shakespeare, The Merchant of Venice

 


We are home. 

Why is it that the first day back from an extended holiday is so hard? I couldn’t for the life of me get back into the swing of things at work. Couldn’t figure out what to make for supper. Couldn’t seem to motivate myself to empty my suitcase. Couldn’t get my mind around all I had to do before I fell into bed. There was just too much on my mind & on my calendar. In fact, I found myself secretly wishing I could hop back in the car & head back to Ohio to relive the wonderful Thanksgiving we had with my family… a beautiful time… a restful time… a peaceful time.  

Now hear me when I say, it is good to get away. It is healthy to renew our souls & connect with our loved ones. 

But is it really any wonder that when we sneak away & enjoy the out of the ordinary… a brief reprieve from our day to day experiences & responsibilities… to rest, relax & renew… that we find it hard to reengage our normal everyday life?  

I was thinking about this as we drug ourselves into our apartment complex last night around 9:30. I hadn’t even put my key in the door before a couple of our neighbors popped out to visit. We spent the next hour in our entry way talking, listening & sharing life with them. 

Listening to those two beautiful women share about their own holiday, I was painfully reminded of how much I have. Of how blessed I am in my day to day ordinary life. I was reminded that I live in a world full of hunger & sickness, sorrow & pain. Yes, I know that month after month, week after week, day after day, I continue to belabor this point but I can’t shake the ramifications of ignoring it from my soul. 

After all, it was in the shadow of Herod’s glittering palace that our Savior was born. Our Jesus came to save the ordinary, the lost, the poor, the plain. 1 Timothy 1:15 reminds me, "It is a trustworthy statement, deserving full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, among whom I am foremost of all." After everything He did for me, how can I not help but feel the overwhelming sense of urgency to engage the very same things He did, in my today?  

There is no doubt that I will continue to be surrounded by all things bright & beautiful this month… but thru the magic of this holiday season, I am committing to remember to open my eyes to what lies shadowed just beyond that light. To embrace the ordinary… engage the humble… love the unfortunate… honor the Holy.  

Will you?